how can you know...

As I'm experiencing and allowing myself to just embrace life today, I'm going to admit to you all that I am hurting...really hurting in my heart, emotions, feelings...whatever you want to call it. I am feeling deep sorrow, pain, aching, and that feeling of "will this end?" Right now, in the midst of it all, it feels like I'm one of the biggest disappointments to pretty much everyone I know.

Maybe you are feeling like this too. Sometimes, very well-meaning people will say things to you like "get over it" "get over yourself" and "what's wrong with you...it's not the end of the world." How about this one: "chin UP. You look like you lost your best friend!" Ugh, I hate that one! Does it ever occur to these well-meaning humans that maybe you DID lose your best friend? Maybe you are hurting for a very legitimate reason after all.

So, the question is...how can I know...how can YOU know...a God who is totally the opposite of everything you are feeling right now? How can you know God is not angry with you, when you are feeling that everyone under the sun hates your guts? How can you know a God who is in a good mood, when it seems nobody else is? How can you know this "God of reconciliation" when the person you most want that relationship, is not willing to even speak with you, let alone "make up?" How can you know the God of HOPE for the hopeless, when it looks like you really have hit a roadblock that is totally insurmountable in your life?" How can you know the One who really sticks closer than a brother, when your own family is lying to and turning against you and maybe even turning others against you too? How can you know the God who "will never leave you nor forsake you," who "will take you up even when your own mother forsakes you" who "is with you even to the ends of the earth."

Tell me, how CAN you know?

I'll tell you how...I'll show you what will work for you because it has worked for me and after a recent few hurtful events, I am counting on it to pull me through yet again.

Close your eyes right where you are. What do you see? Yes, the inside of your eyelids, of course...but, you can also see into another realm that is very different from this earth; peaceful, tranquil, serene. You get there by asking Jesus to take you. Just say, "Jesus, right now, nothing makes sense to me. Nobody seems to understand me. All feels very much lost to me. I need YOU to show me whatever I need to see, in order to live the very next second without pain and hopelessness. I need YOU to cause all other people, places and things to become totally obscure and dim to me. I need YOU to show me how to commune and cooperate with Your Spirit, so I can escape the uncertaintly in my life long enough to hear what the next step is that I should be taking."

After this, say "Jesus, if YOU don't take me here, to this place where Your Spirit is more real to me than this earthly existence, then I'm not going anywhere. Like Moses said to You, Lord...unless YOU go, I will not. So Jesus, by Your Holy Spirit, take me there, please. Take me now and show me what to do from that place."

To help with all this, put on some really mellow, sweet, soaking-type music. Some good songs can be found at www.soakingwithapurpose.com, or from my dear brother's site at www.dunamisarts.com. Focus on just tuning into God and where He is telling you to go, what He is telling you to do, what His good plan is.

I have learned that when I come to the end of my rope and usually myself, it's because people and myself became way too big in my life. It's time to come away and re-learn what He thinks of me, who He says I am, what He says I'm capable of and what I excel at. You will not find this 24/7 in any human relationship, I guarantee you.

Human beings only carry a portion of who God is. They are like little jagged chips of a mirror...each one reflecting just a part of God, but not able to totally join together to form the full picture. You need Him as He is...as clearly as you can see, feel, hear, smell, breathe Him...man cannot come close to displaying Him in His glory and splendor. Even time with Him cannot fully show you who He is. It will be enough, though. The foggy glimpse of Him that you are able to see, will be enough...to move you forward a little bit more each moment...till you one day see Him face to face.

Physical human beings cannot be all places at all times. We use telephones to communicate; we don't generally speak to each other spirit to spirit, although we can to an extent. God does that all the time and the best! We use computers that shut down in the middle of conversations. We talk in chat rooms in which we don't realize that we hit the "x" too soon and the other person feels slighted by us. God doesn't ever leave in the middle of a conversation, either accidentally or on purpose. We give up on people, on situations. God knows the end from the beginning; He doesn't quit, doesn't falter, doesn't lack answers that you need. People are finite creatures regarding this earth. We die. Lives end. We live again in eternity, but who we are here is nothing remotely close to who we will be when our characters have no flaws and are 100% plus, refined because of being captivated by the power and glory of the Perfect One.

When things happen that feel beyond remedy, Come Away with Him like I just showed you, and know that there is another finite human being, maybe on the other side of the world, doing the exact same thing...and finding myself in HIM.

I welcome any and all comments, suggestions, etc
Bless you all!